Trying to keep this little man busy on a super cold and super snowy day.
Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning, so much to do and I can't ever get ahead. The days are packed with feeding and snuggling a baby, entertaining a three year old, diapers, mountains of laundry, a sink full of dishes, toy scattered all over, mess after mess, and then when the girls are home there's homework, piano lessons and practicing, the sibling fighting, oh and that one thing called dinner. It's so overwhelming to me some times. Some days I'm able to squeeze in some exercise and a shower. And on a really good day, makeup and hair fixed and jeans not sweats. It all leaves me wondering, how do people do it, this thing I'm struggling to do each day??? I'd really like to know. I think of my mom often and wonder how she did it. I remember things always seeming so put together and her remaining so patient and calm. I try and channel her and just breathe. Sometimes I even lock myself in the bathroom for a few and eat a piece of dark chocolate from my stash in my underwear drawer. (Shhh) The other night I was telling Jake how I just feel like it's all to much and I can't do it all and do it well. He reassured me that I am doing it and doing it well and that someday I will long for these days when my babies are still babies. I am thankful for these days, even though they are long and sometimes hard. There are sweet little moments that present themselves each day when I'm aware enough to notice them.
