Saturday, August 19, 2017


Well we all made it through the first week of school! Yay! 
The kids have done great getting back into it and Livie and I are finding our groove as well. 
Lots of together time for the two of us, but so far so good. We started "mommy school " yesterday. She felt so left out not being able to go to like the rest of them so hope this will fill her cup. 😊
Jake and Hallie are hunting this morning.   Saturday stuff today 
Maybe a backyard movie tonight?
Need to get my sunbeam lesson ready
Dinner with friends tomorrow 




Wednesday, August 16, 2017

First Day

Yesterday was the first day of school. Always mixed feelings for me. The kids were excited and had a great first day. They're getting so grown up and it does tug at my heart watching it all. 
But I'm trying to change my outlook a bit. Instead of dwelling on how sad it is that they are growing up, changing, becoming more independent, I'm really trying to just embrace it all and be excited for them and all that lies ahead for them. They have so much ahead of them and so many firsts ahead still and I get to experience it with them. 
Life is filled with change and 
It's beautiful, all of it. 



Monday, August 14, 2017

Over the weekend....

Catching Rollie pollies 

Sink baths
Also cleaning the house, shopping at the store and getting ready for Sunday. 
Jake was made a high priest and set apart as a member of the high council yesterday. Barry and Janell drove down so they could be here. His Dad gave him a beautiful blessing and the spirit was strong as great men surrounded him with their hands on his head. 
How thankful I am for the priesthood in my life and the worthy men that hold it. It truly is God's power here on the earth. 
This weekend I also finished the Book of Mormon again. 
As I read those final words of Moroni my heart was touched even deeper and my testimony strengthened of the power of those words of prophets who put faith over fear, who carried those plates around from place to place and preserved them for our benefit. There's great power in those words that I'm so thankful for. 
Here's to a new week and starting school!👍🏻😩😳😊😬💃🏼 
Lots of mixed feelings.



Friday, August 11, 2017

Thursday, August 10, 2017


-3 mile run
-kids playing Barbies all morning (poor McKay)
-registered Hallie for 8th grade 😩
-back to school night for Sadie and Mckay 😩😩
-Haircut for Mckay
-Great Harvest for Cinnamon chip bread
-Made a chocolate zucchini cake- yum! 
and played Mexican train 
-a little sewing 
-"pasketti" for dinner at 9:00
-Late bedtime per usual lately 
I'm tired. 
But my heart is so full and thankful as I think about today. 


When we were at Great Harvest, the sweetest little older lady touched my arm and told me, " you have such a cute family." 
I felt so grateful in that moment for this season of life. I'm sure when I get to be her age I will long for these days with these cute kiddos and the long, full days.  
So for now I will do my best to savor them. 



Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Left foot, right shoe

Wanting to pick up blogging again. Nothing serious, but jotting down things about our days here and there. 
I don't know what the future will be like, but I hope that what I have written here might be of value to our sweet kids one day. 
That they will be able to read this blog and know for certain that they were loved by me wholeheartedly and unconditionally. 
That they are the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me. 
That I consider myself the luckiest mom in the whole world. 


Wednesday, March 15, 2017

mama thoughts

The other night I went to check on each of the kids before bed and instead of the routine quick check I stayed there a minute and watched each of them sleep for a minute. I watched their sweet, peaceful faces and listened to their calm, rhythmic breathing (and Mckays snoring).
As I watched them I thought about each one of them individually and all the good that they are, all that each of them have struggled with and made it through, the things we've struggled with together and the joy and happiness that each of them have given to me. Tears rolled down my cheeks, my heart was so full. Full of love and gratitude for each day that I have been able to be their Mom. For all that they have shown me and taught me. What a gift it is to experience life through their eyes. And then came feelings of fear, worry, doubt. 
I fear the future for them, I worry about them, I worry about the job I'm doing as their Mother. 
Am I doing enough? What should I be doing better, different?
Then a feeling and thought came, 

Just love them, make sure the know it and feel it. 

So simple, but important. 
The next day came and school was out, things went a long as usual. Livie woke up grumpy and still wasn't quite over her bout of the flu. She didn't want to wear clothes, or eat breakfast. There was some fighting, some attitude and a mom fail when we drove and drove in search of " glitter mountain " that we never found. 
But that sacred Mom experience from the night before carried me through all the ups and down of the day as I tried to focus on "just loving" them. 
Love really is powerful.
I'm so thankful to be a Mother and experience loving these little people in a way that I didn't even know existed until now.